I watched supernatural last night.. a couple of episodes.. i heard that they were showing Angels and Demons and had somehow linked the story of Kane and Abel into the story.. this they had done indeed.. in one episode they died and went to the part where their life flashed before their eyes.. this part was interesting as it did not flash in a series of small jumps from memory to memory .. they lived the fondest memories while waiting for the Angel of Death to find them.. their depiction of heaven is pretty interesting too.. a garden of Eden centered around a vast amount of what people wanted their heavens to be. I guess if you think about it, it makes sense.. i was told that i would get whatever i wanted in heaven.. so if i wanted to be king i guess i would be king.. if i wanted to be a bartender i would have a bar..interestingly one of characters described the place as the Matrix.. hehe .. a place without free will.. now wouldnt that be a slap in the face..

when i was very young and i heard about the horrors of hell from my loving mother before bedtime .. i forced myself not to sleep.. cause apparently ppl die in their sleep.. and i did not want to die and go to hell.. what my mom chose not to tell me was that i was 6 and not eligible yet... cant blame mothers.. they want whats best for us.. here and the afterlife.. anyway after a day i knew i had to sleep sometime.. so the young mind of mine decided to make up a story about my life.. the story was that i had already died went to heaven and decided to relive my life... so even if had died in my sleep i would go to heaven... it made sense then.. and i did sleep..

I have read texts, books and forward emails and recently one was on the wall of my facebook page about whats in heaven.. sometimes i wonder why its so specific though...70,000 dining tables with 80,000 types of food.. a number is a limitation for me.. i believe that heaven is the ultimate infinity of everything.. for one thing.. we wont die after we get there...

when i was young i was given advice about the outside world.. gambling, fornication, alcohol .. drugs.. Muslims are forbidden to use them or do them.. i get that.. set of rules for everything.. but what i dont understand is what came after .. "if you dont do them here and be a good boy, you can do them in heaven".. growing up i often wondered why that part was relevant.. if in a human body, with our limitations and "feelings" if we can withhold sinning.. with the intention of going to heaven to do it. would we actually deserve heaven??.. i mean is heaven a great big party.. with booze and chicks.. i dont know but if you think about it.. it wudnt be right?.. there would be rules there too.. if there were not we would not actually be here...