in the end,
i know i will cry,
in the end,
i know i will die.

life is short,
i heard yesterday,
to end up in hells court,
im not ready, not yet, not today.

i know now there is an end,
not to life,
but to this point in life, this little bend.

i want to think im happy,
but im probably not,
how would i define happy,
its eluded me for some time, i have forgot.

........ fcuk